Post by retired builder3-aximili on Apr 26, 2009 21:30:04 GMT
Flora has given us a bit of her background lending to the formation of even2all. We have had some disagreements recently particularly with the 18+ board. To better foster understanding I'm going to do a "coming from" thread. I'm going to do this in a a series of posts.
This first post this is very difficult for me to express without opening old wounds so please bare with me Like Flora I've had my share of drama both irl and on forums. There are two types of drama im going to in this first post point out on that is a irl serious situation that can as does pop up on boards. Before I joined E2A I was (and still am) a member of Truthscape. There was a good share of drama there we had one was moments from suicide with gun in hand and this wasn't someone who made any drama on the board.
The reason i point this out is i take suicide serious why... well... During the fall of 04 my mom was very sick on at least 4 occasions she was with in moments of death. I had at this point already became depressed before mom's illness. after the four such near death episode i cracked.. I sunk so deep that i went suicidal. i've been struggling with this deep depression. since then i've had good days then i have bad days... one such bad day... Jan 11, 2006 I was coming home form a doctor's appointment in another state with my brother in the passenger seat. i was entering a town and turning off into the same gas station everyone goes to when they pass through this town its where everyone has to stop sort of a ritual of sorts lol... well the road ahead of me was clear so i turned left into it. the road was not clear... there was a semi coming at me on the passengers side... i froze.... the semi clipped the back side of the vehicle and spun us a good 360 degree...no one got hurt at least not physically... to this day I still suffer from the guilt that if i had waited a second more or had slowed down more during the turn that... my brother would have been hit square on and would have most likely killed him...
no need to feel sorry for me it's a fact of live for me and I deal with it as it comes...
ill post again in a few once i regather my thoughts...
This first post this is very difficult for me to express without opening old wounds so please bare with me Like Flora I've had my share of drama both irl and on forums. There are two types of drama im going to in this first post point out on that is a irl serious situation that can as does pop up on boards. Before I joined E2A I was (and still am) a member of Truthscape. There was a good share of drama there we had one was moments from suicide with gun in hand and this wasn't someone who made any drama on the board.
The reason i point this out is i take suicide serious why... well... During the fall of 04 my mom was very sick on at least 4 occasions she was with in moments of death. I had at this point already became depressed before mom's illness. after the four such near death episode i cracked.. I sunk so deep that i went suicidal. i've been struggling with this deep depression. since then i've had good days then i have bad days... one such bad day... Jan 11, 2006 I was coming home form a doctor's appointment in another state with my brother in the passenger seat. i was entering a town and turning off into the same gas station everyone goes to when they pass through this town its where everyone has to stop sort of a ritual of sorts lol... well the road ahead of me was clear so i turned left into it. the road was not clear... there was a semi coming at me on the passengers side... i froze.... the semi clipped the back side of the vehicle and spun us a good 360 degree...no one got hurt at least not physically... to this day I still suffer from the guilt that if i had waited a second more or had slowed down more during the turn that... my brother would have been hit square on and would have most likely killed him...
no need to feel sorry for me it's a fact of live for me and I deal with it as it comes...
ill post again in a few once i regather my thoughts...